After being referred to a psychologist by one of the nurses in hospital a few weeks ago, I had my first session today.
Unfortunately there is nothing exciting to report back on, but the psychologist did agree that I was showing some signs of anxiety and stress – and apart from my rubbish sleeping skills, there was nothing to be overly concerned about.
That was until she told me I didn’t breathe properly…(I was once told I don’t blink properly too, how I’ve lasted on earth I’ll never know).
I have short, shallow breathing (which is a sign of anxiety and contributes to stress) and I don’t use my whole diaphragm to breathe. So she wants to fix that.
Almost without pausing for breathe (no pun intended), she then moved onto asking if I was still getting a Morning Glory since my heart attack.
Woah there! Any chance you can segue into that a bit better next time…
Medications/stress/anxiety can all affect it blah blah… Oh, ok, that’s why you’ve brought this up (not literally). I stopped short of telling her how proud I was of finally being able to bash one out this morning…left handed.
Not long after, the allotted hour had ended and she send me packing with some breathing exercises and knowing how much of a wanker I am – I know people who wouldn’t take an hour to come to that conclusion.
Most of the session was spent telling her my back story, but she said there’s some things for me to work on, and asked me to keep a record of my mood each day over the next couple of weeks. According to the doctors/nurses, and now the physiologist, I’m heading for a big depression crash soon – (depression is very common after a heart attack), but if it wasn’t for the doctors and nurses etc telling me that, I wouldn’t put myself in that bracket at all. I feel almost the total opposite and for the majority of the time have been in a good mood since it happened. *Shrugs.*
I’m still a bit blurrggghh about going to see a psychologist (and she didn’t look anything like Dr Melfi), but I’m keeping an open mind and I’ll give it a couple of sessions and see if I get anything out of it.